Well, as always a lot has changed since my last post. There have been a lot of events in my life and all of them have worked out for the better. There is one thing in particular that is bringing me most of my happiness. I am no longer single!

The girl who I am now calling  my girlfriend is a special one. For the longest time (Since we met) I have had a bit of a thing for her, but never decided to let anyone know. There was a lot of drama that surrounded her and none of it was anything I wanted to be part of. I kept my distance and showed as little interest as I possibly could. Apparently it worked well because she had absolutely no idea that I was interested. Anyways, after talking to her online about relationships, friends and many other things on our minds I informed her that I had a bit of a crush on her…

Not too long after this we decided to try out a date and see how well it went. Knowing she was special, I wanted to make the first date special to match! I planned our date around wine tasting at the Wolf Creek Winery. The date started with me picking her up from her house with flowers waiting. From there we went to the winery, did some wine tasting, ordered pizza and just had a generally great time. Afterwards we went back to my house, curled up and watched a couple movies. All together I’d say it was a perfect night.

From that point on we have seen eachother constantly and have enjoyed every second more than the last. (At least I have… I hope she feels the same way!) I actually got up the guts to ask her if she was ready to start a relationship and after a bit after that (And a nice romantic cuddling night) she decided she was ready. Since then we’ve been a happy couple for the few days we’ve been together. There’s really not much else to say about this without going on and on about how amazing she is, so I’ll leave it at that.

As for everything else… I’ll save that for another post. I think I’ll get some rest now!

Oh, by the way… SHE LIKES SHOOTING GUNS! WOO!

Well, life has been quite exciting for me lately! I’ve cheered up since my last rant and I figured I’d give some updates on how my life has been going. From friends, parties, sushi and bowling to creating a new MySpace and finally getting myself a SuicideGirls.com account that I’ve been wanting for a while, there have been a lot of big changes and fun goings on. =P

Anyways, after talking with a couple friends and enjoying nights out to clear my mind I’ve come up with new ways to look at things to keep myself happy and having a great life. I’ve been out eating sushi every Monday as usual with good people and shopping for my super-awesome Halloween costume that will hopefully be ready by Friday for Danny’s party. Tuesdays have, of course, been set for bowling every week. Hanging out with friends, bowling and having a couple beers makes Tuesdays a day I actually look forward to.

I’ve gotten started on my business plan as well! With a website design company comes the need for a web presence. I started off by recreating my MySpace with a custom design. You can check that out by clicking here. With MySpace comes another membership to one of the most awesome websites I’ve come across. I finally decided to throw down some money and get myself a membership on SuicideGirls.com. Feel free to check out my SG profile by clicking here!

I’m out of updates for now, but keep checking back!

BWAHAHA.

So right now I’m on a major caffiene buzz. I’ve had a total of like 7-8 cups of coffee today and 3 cans of pop. That mixed with well-timed eating, a couple beers and some fresh air has got me WIRED. ANYWAYS. I am blogging right now to get a bunch of shit off my chest that probably won’t make any sense to anyone unless the people I’m talking about read this shit. And a lot of people that read this may think this post is about them when its really not. Oh well, its fun to confuse people and whatnot. =D

HERE IT GOES

First off, girls, guys, everyone in between… You DO NOT need the opposite gender to be happy. I’ve talked to several people lately, many of which think they need someone from the opposite gender to make them happy. Sure, it makes it easier to be happy when you have someone to fool around with, hold hands with, cuddle with… But usually that just leads to the point where you’re like, “Why the hell am I here? I’d be happier single.” PEOPLE. Relationships, sexual companionship… All of that isn’t NEEDED. I’m single, I’m happy… I guess I don’t see why other people can’t be the same way.

Second off… STOP TELLING ME WHO I SHOULD FUCKING VOTE FOR. MY CHOICE, NOT YOURS. Obama this, McCain that. Its bad enough I have to hear about it on TV, online, at work… I don’t need my friends or random strangers bringing it up to me too. I swear to God I can’t wait for this to all be over, which it won’t be. Ever. Whoever gets elected, there will be a group of people that will make it trendy and cool to bitch and moan about them, and I’ll get to go through that for another 4-8 years.

Finally (The end of this post, not of stuff I wanna bitch about right now)… LIVE LIFE AND HAVE FUN. Everyone needs to slow down and stop worrying about shit so much. If you spend your entire life worrying about the rest of your life you’ll die without actually living life. Don’t spend all of your time planning for the next time you have to plan. Kick back, have a random day, do whatever you feel like for once. Jesus… So many people working around strict and tight schedules. Just do what you please and go with the flow for a change. Its completely awesome and great feeling.

LOVE YOU ALL!

Until next time,
Josh <3

Well, the party from the last post was a HUGE success. TONS of people showed up and had fun. None of my equipment got destroyed and everyone made it through alive! Awesome! Oh.. And I’m 22 now. I’m a grandpa. =(

As for everything else… HALLOWEEN PARTIES ARE COMING UP! I’m going to be dressed as a Russian soldier with my comrade Jake. We’ve got bullets, guns, goggles, helmets, gas masks… Gonna be an amazing time. Hopefully the parties turn out good and my costume doesn’t get destroyed on the first night.

I also got to try sake for the first time. It was okay, but I was expecting more. I’d much rather drink Pepsi with my sushi. The fact that I was drinking it in shots instead of sipping it probably had something to do with that though. They shouldn’t serve the bottle with a tiny shot glass to an American college student. They’re just asking for it to be destroyed. =x

That’s all for now! WAIT! I got Mortal Kombat 1 and 2 on DVD today for $10 including shipping! Can’t wait for them to arrive!

Saturday I have a LOT of planning and preparation for the night. I have to get wood from work, help KJ, Mark and Bobby gather wood from Bobby’s work, unload it all, drunk-proof KJ’s house and get a sound system set up in the back yard for a MASSIVE party which is supposed to take place that night. 9PM to the following day will be an insane time. People, fire, music, booze… Wow, can’t wait!

Sunday, after waking up and cleaning up I’m heading to work to go to yet another concert in Cleveland! This time I’ll be seeing Protest the Hero and Unearth at the always enjoyable House of Blues. This too should be a good show.

Monday I have requested off a paid day at work to recover from this awesome weekend. Hopefully I’ll make it through alive!

Chiodos - “Lindsay Quit Lollygagging”

Bite my tongue, right now the perfect time
Do anything to make her happy
Even if it means my being miserable
As long as she’s loving life

I will be able to sleep at night
With a smile upon her face
I will be able to sleep at night
With a smile upon her face

Thought of a smile not being there
My inner feelings would be shattered
A piece of glass puncturing my heart
I’m bleeding from the inside

I will be able to sleep at night
With a smile upon her face
I will be able to sleep at night
With a smile upon her face

As long as she’s perfectly fine
I hope she’s perfectly fine
And some day she will be mine

I will be able to sleep at night
With a smile upon her face

As long as she’s perfectly fine
I hope she’s perfectly fine
And some day she will be mine

Well, it seems as if the days are getting shorter and the air is getting colder. I’m not at all excited about this but it’s nothing that I can change. Oh well, just another half a year of cold and hoodies. With Fall brings a lot of change though. I plan on getting more involved in starting my own business. This involves getting together a business plan, working out a budget and a ton of other stuff. It’ll be a huge pain in the ass but at least I’ll be doing something with my life.

Another change that’s happening is that I’m actually getting more involved in working on my car. I’m no mechanic and I can’t do too much on my own, but I am making some improvements and modifications, but I’ll get into that in another post when I have more to talk about.

I’ve also managed to end/resolve a problem I recently had in my life. I won’t go into any details here because it’s a bit more personal than I care to share to any random person online, and I like to think of myself as a bit more mature than that. =P Anyways, I’m all better on that and now have a clear head and an idea of where my life is going as far as that is concerned! Woo!

Other than that, stuff has been pretty much normal. Ran into some old friends I’m glad I’m hanging out with, getting to know some of my current friends better and all other kinds of phun stuff.

This is Josh, signing out for now!

Tonight I get to hang out with a friend I haven’t seen in ages and I’m really excited about it. Tonight should help me get my mind off things that I need to stop thinking about. Tomorrow I hopefully get a chance to do some much needed work on my car… Brakes, knock sensor, random fixes… After that its over to Jackson’s for a drink or two and a night of experimenting with a thing called a Dreamachine! Should be a good time.

That’s about all for now! First real post from my phone! Woo!

I am also done camping sadly. The trip over the weekend was amazing and I really wish I was still there. As much as I’m involved with computers on a daily basis, I highly enjoyed being away from them for a couple days. I may get into more details on the trip later but for now just check out the camping photo album.

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Not only am I done with camping and school, but I’m also done trying to reach specific goals. I find myself going out of my way to get things to work out in my life, girl issues specifically and I’m realizing that all that I get in return is confusion and stress. I no longer care which way things go in my “love life” or whatever you want to call it. Apparently the “happy medium” thing that people were trying to get me to won’t work out for me, so I’m giving that up. Everyone tells me I live my life in extremes… Either WAY too positive or WAY too negative. I think I’m just gonna ride the negative train for a while now and see where it takes me. Yeah, call me a pessimist or whatever but I’m done being optimistic on parts of life. I’m done with this beating around the bush, getting hints here and there on where shit is gonna go. I just honestly want to find out what the hell is going on and why it’s happening that way.

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Sorry about that. Thought I had it all out of me. Guess not!

Ever feel that life is unfair? You try your best and end up getting dicked over in the end? Every time you go out of your way for someone else, try to help someone, do something good for someone else or whatnot you get praised, but if you do something for yourself you get shunned or made fun of…? This is how I’ve felt for a while now, but I’m gonna try and keep this as far from a “pleas pity me” post as I possibly can. I just feel like ranting and I have nowhere to rant besides here. =)

Girls, women, relationships…
To put it simple, ALL females are complete bat-shit crazy. No offense to you ladies out there, but you are and you know it. All the random shit that goes through your heads, all the mixed-up, twisted logic… It’s all crazy as hell! If a guy dumps you and treats you like shit, get over it! If a girl says something about you that hurts your feelings, fuck them! Can’t get over a guy? Stop talking to him! It’s all very simple, yet the ladies take simple problems and pile shit onto them, blowing them all out of proportion! Females are insane.

Friends
It’s about time I start re-evaluating my friendships with several people. I have realized that some people may be better friends that I thought, and others are complete shit who care only for themselves. Several people whom I haven’t talked to much in the past have stepped up to the plate to help me get through some of my current problems. I appreciate that and am 100% grateful. You know who you are and I’m trying to avoid mentioning names in all of this. The other group I mentioned (The shit friends) are un-supportive, selfish and need to grow the fuck up. If I wanna talk to someone I care about and spend time with them, fucking let me! God forbid I don’t spend every waking moment paying attention to you. If I wanna quit drinking to better myself, support me on it! Just because I’m tired of acting like an asshole and wasting my money at the same time doesn’t mean I’m any less me. If anything I’m improving the quality of my life! Summary: Things need to change!

Work
Actually, work isn’t too bad right now. <3

Final Thought
Life is kinda screwy right now. I need to make some lifestyle changes to help me fix that for myself.